Self-Promotion, Or Lack Thereof

I would like to consider myself a shameless self-promoter. I’d be lying, but it’s a nice lie, right?

In reality, I pretend to pimp myself out, big myself up, and all that jive, but I don’t actually do any of it. I shyly ignore my own blog posts, rarely update my portfolio, and generally let things fester in an unpromoted oblivion.

Much like the fear of writing, I think this stems from a fear of failure. Yes, I’ve written, but if nobody actually reads it, it doesn’t matter that it was utter and total crap. A tree falling in the woods, only with writing and the internet.

I’d love to be a writing sensation, with legions of fans. However, I want it to happen spontaneously. I don’t want to actually ask for those fans.

Case in point, my Facebook fan page. I have one. It’s unpublished. I can’t bring myself to publish it and have it out there, where people can see — in a concrete number — how many people ‘like’ me as a writer. That utterly terrifies me. It’s a recipe for failure, as far as I’m concerned. So it sits unpublished, doing nothing for me, giving me no promotion whatsoever.

I don’t know how to get myself over this hump of promotion, or if I really want to get over it. Self-promotion is time consuming. Self-promotion takes effort. Self-promotion is icky. Why would I want to do it?

But I know that my current plan — writing, allowing the automated Twitter post, and little else — isn’t working. It’s time I get over my fear of promotion.

Then again, maybe I’ll wait until I’ve written something good…

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About jeninher30s

A writer and procrastinator.

3 responses to “Self-Promotion, Or Lack Thereof”

  1. Antonio Ethan Milian says :

    Self-promotion is always tricky because of the exposure we get – but we can’t please everybody, eventually someone will say something we don’t like. I don’t think it takes too much effort to self-promote although it seems to be a bit frowned upon in England if not done in moderation.

    So go ahead and start promoting! 😀

  2. vivisunoriginal says :

    So perhaps you can understand my recent ‘anguish’ over creating a page for writing and photography – however much I do of either I will never see myself as a writer or a photographer, but I can also see that when I start applying for jobs, if either discipline is to come into it (which it probably won’t, I’ll probably end up back in admin), I need something to show people.

    • jeninher30s says :

      I just checked — I created my Facebook page just shy of two years ago, when I put together my current portfolio site, which hasn’t been updated in at least a year. (I can blame Jack for lack of updates, right?) I struggle with what to put on a FB page, and can easily convince myself that nobody will ever bother liking that page. Keeping it unpublished is a comfortable limbo.

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